rachel

nervousbride @ 2008-04-05T00:31:00

2008-04-05T05:31:48Z

god i am so totally obsessed with michael jackson right now it's not even funny.

!!!

nervousbride @ 2008-03-12T03:03:00

2008-03-12T08:04:00Z

i've been having so much trouble getting to sleep/sleeping for the past couple of weeks. :( it sucks.

nervousbride @ 2008-02-19T11:46:00

2008-02-19T17:47:26Z

i can't fucking live with my parents much longer or i will go insane.

nervousbride @ 2008-01-30T01:58:00

2008-01-30T08:02:00Z

muuuusssttt finissshhh homeworrrrkk

nervousbride @ 2008-01-24T09:37:00

2008-01-24T15:37:54Z

it's only the second week of school and i'm already soooo tired. :(

nervousbride @ 2008-01-06T18:28:00

2008-01-07T00:38:48Z

occasionally, i get really homesick for portland. today is one of those days. i wanted to be home while i was there. i want to be there now that i'm home. sometimes i really think i should go back, but i am in a lot of debt now. i have medical bills, an overdrawn bank account, and credit card debt. maybe if i do well in school this semester, and can manage to get my debt under control, i can go back to portland. we'll see.

sorry to be a grinch, but

2007-12-25T02:34:57Z

Christmas is just making me remember how much I dislike my own life. I wish I could disappear.

edit
by the way, when i say i dislike my life, i pretty much mean that i dislike myself for doing or not doing certain things that have screwed me over and caused me to really not like my current situation.

nervousbride @ 2007-12-07T15:12:00

2007-12-07T21:14:29Z

I was really positive about going to Africa, I really thought it could happen.

It probably still could, but I think it would be best if I want until next summer. They do it every year so unless something happens, it should be going on next summer.

:( I might still be able to go, but I just don't know if I can raise the money after all.

ugh

2007-11-29T04:44:23Z

TODAY IS AN UGLY DAY. =[

nervousbride @ 2007-11-14T07:23:00

2007-11-14T13:24:17Z

i could go to africa if i really wanted to. what to do.

nervousbride @ 2007-10-31T14:31:00

2007-10-31T19:33:25Z

duuude this sucks, i feel really crappy. it's just a cold but it's draining my energy, especially because i kept sneezing and having to blow my nose last night so i didn't get to bed until really late. i slept so late that i even missed my first class... now i am struggling to get ready for my next one just because i have no energy. =[ LAME.

nervousbride @ 2007-10-30T22:11:00

2007-10-31T03:13:27Z

OMG I JUST FOUND A HUGE LIVE SPIDER CRAWLING ON THE WALL NEXT TO MY BED... RIGHT BY MY HEAD!!!

SNGPKDANIPGBDNB';AMB';A gross/creepy!! it's gone now but what if there are more???!!! i'm freaked out now... i even moved my bed so it's not against the wall anymore.

nervousbride @ 2007-10-30T19:12:00

2007-10-31T00:14:17Z

today in japanese class we learned about 500 new words.

ok that's an exaggeration but still! it was a LOT! and we only got about half-way through them all! and i still don't know all the ones from last time!

ahhhhhhh FLASH CARDS.

nervousbride @ 2007-10-29T02:54:00

2007-10-29T07:54:32Z

registration successful.

nervousbride @ 2007-10-29T00:09:00

2007-10-29T05:09:57Z

ohhhhmyyyy registration started about 8 minutes ago! REGISTRATION IS A BITCH.

nervousbride @ 2007-10-26T02:04:00

2007-10-26T07:10:59Z

anyone ever seen this movie? i really, really liked it.

nervousbride @ 2007-10-26T02:00:00

2007-10-26T07:01:28Z

my secret wife
my secret knife
my secret life

nervousbride @ 2007-10-25T01:14:00

2007-10-25T06:15:24Z

dear me,

quit fucking up.

love,

me

nervousbride @ 2007-10-22T02:22:00

2007-10-22T07:28:16Z

tonight was an adventurrrree.

and i got a letter from the student loan people saying my repayment is scheduled to start in december!!! noooo i'm still in school i shouldn't be repaying yet! i guess i didn't send them anything letting them know i'm still enrolled... hopefully if i talk to them i can get it all figured out.

nervousbride @ 2007-10-18T11:11:00

2007-10-18T16:11:56Z

woo it's my birthday!

word of the day

2007-10-16T22:39:22Z

wanderlust :: strong longing for or impulse toward wandering.

nervousbride @ 2007-10-15T01:29:00

2007-10-15T06:29:36Z

i really really want to make music!

nervousbride @ 2007-10-12T01:14:00

2007-10-12T06:16:39Z

living is amazing. i love to breathe, i love to smell, think, get hurt, be happy. whatever, it's all amazing.

nervousbride @ 2007-10-11T10:49:00

2007-10-11T16:01:54Z

i started practicing a raw diet today. i'm just going to test it out and see how i feel. i'm not 100% raw, i'll eat whatever i want for dinner. i constantly feel tired and sluggish, no matter how much rest i get. i really think it's because i've developed poor eating habits in the past few months.

i have a big japanese test today. i really hope i do well! i'm about to head off to school and spend an hour cramming before the test. =]

i've been trying to not want so many things. i shouldn't spend so much time agonizing over poorly made payless shoes or clever, trendy t-shirts. but i can't help but want some new comfy clothes from american eagle!

that's about it.

itunes blows

2007-10-10T16:16:32Z

i'm really annoyed because i just bought two albums off itunes, and i can't do anything with them. i knew i wouldn't be able to burn them onto a CD, but it won't even let me put them on my mp3 player. i guess buying things off itunes is only useful if you have an ipod... which i don't have. dumb.